Frustrated with your weight and dislike how you look in the mirror?

Struggling to keep to a diet and exercise routine, but do you find yourself getting nowhere or starting strong and petering out?

Wish someone could just show you what's wrong with you?

This week's video is an intimate look into how I personally lost 30 pounds and kept the weight off.

And no, the it's not about diet OR exercise...

Know this: Weight loss? It's not about pounds on the scale. Never has been, never will be. It's about learning to Love yourself enough to BE your true self. #H2LYS

Back in 2012 I began my weight loss journey. Yes, 2012, the year when the year was supposed to end and all that good stuff! For me, I experienced a shift in my consciousness that catapulted a new relationship with my body.

You see, I have struggled with my weight all my life - it's been up and down and back again. At that time I had been the heaviest I've ever been, 160 pounds on my 5'3" frame, and I was tired, bloated and wondering what's wrong with me.

Spoiler: THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU.

What inspired me to look beyond comparing myself to others (friends, magazines, blah blah blah) was 2 books in particular: "The Care and Feeding of Indigo Children" by Doreen Virtue and "The pH Miracle for Weight Loss" by Robert O. Young.

What Doreen's book helped me realize was that my emotional eating was not just "out of control" or a "problem" but moreover it was an unconscious but calculated habit to deal with being a highly sensitive individual.

Her work showed me how I was using food to shut down my sensitivity so I could cope with empathic overwhelm.

Robert's book continued to build on this, showing me the science of what happens when you put certain things in your body, and how you can communicate better with your body by clearing it out.

So for New Year's 2013, I began a 3-month psyllium husks cleanse, committed to detox from all the negative energy my body was holding so I can receive nutrients better and receive the gut feelings Spirit was sending me with greater clarity. (Email me if you want to know the exact cleanse at senseivictoriawhitfield@gmail.com).

But here's the thing - you need to know WHY I did this, moreso than the HOW.

The how gets boring, old and wears off with time, but if you have a WHY that is bigger than your desire to stay at a certain weight, you can make sustainable and lasting change. So here's why I did it:

I realized that I need to Love myself more.

That's just it.

Love.

I started to see inner self and my body as a defenseless baby crying for attention and in need of help. Rather than stuffing a baconator in her mouth to shut her up because she's to bloated and exhausted to cry any more, I decided to listen to her and tend to her cries.

It's about learning to listen with Love to yourself and your body. That means feeling and learning about how your body responds to different foods, exercise, behaviors, habits, environments and people you have in your life and that you expose it to. And taking action accordingly to protect and nurture her, as you would with a defenseless baby.

So that's how I did it.

The diet, the exercise, the programs, etc. were all an extension of my Big WHY.

Love. Following Love will always bring healing.

This Sunday, we will go more in depth at the Food Energywork: Enlightened Eating for Empaths Retreat.

But I want you to know that all you need to do is start with Loving yourself enough to BE your True Self. Rather than stuffing it down. Leave a comment below or send me an email back at senseivictoriawhitfield@gmail.com with what you think.

In Love and Light,

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